Sunday, June 19, 2011

June June June...... Tsk tsk tsk......

Time flies. Out of sudden,it is already middle of the month,also middle of the year.
Previously really busy with assignments and study. All I can say June is really a pack month.
Half way doing revision,feel like blogging. Hmm....
Since the last updates i made till now,there is a lot of things happened.
Hardly say it all here,maybe just few will do.
Why not talk about last last week?? That was a busy week. The whole week was sleepless week. All i did was just do my assignments until 5 in the morning and woke up around 8-10am and started to do my assignments again. Well,I did made it on time. Thanks God.
Darling also came back on that week as he went to KK for recording and DEYC. Everything gone well. Then the following weekend. It was a fantastic, exciting and a weekend which fulled of joy and happiness. Guess what?? On Saturday itself,11th June, my cousin getting married, and also friends of ours in our church getting married as well,on the same day. Congratulations to both pairs of married couples.
Really enjoy the day itself,and was wondering,when will it be my turn??? Guess it would long way to go.
Then 12th June,ya,it was my darling's birthday. Since a month ago,i actually started to plan for the birthday celebration. That time, i was very excited to do so. Somehow,things still did not turn it right and most of the things did not go according plans. So end up,i had to switch plan. Well,on that night itself,luckily things went according to new plan.
To be honest,I'm kinda disappointed at first for certain things. Guess it was a good lesson for me as well. But what has done yet done.
After that day,the whole week,was my study week. A week for me to study for my final exam,which i has to face it later afternoon. I felt that I really wasted my whole week,because i really didn't study much due to can't concentrate and too into facebook. This is so called the "power" of Facebook. =='''
Kinda nervous,because I'm totally blank now. And my aim is to pass all the subjects and get min. CGPA=2.00.
Bible always said that if you have faith on God,miracles will happen. Some more,last weekend pastor just preached about Why Worry? Means we should not worry for other things,uphold everything to God. Yes,I understand. But,seriously,I really can't help myself not to worry. Because if i felt,1.i might re-sit the paper which is harder and the marks is given in their own way. 2.I might need to re-take that particular subject in 2nd semester. 3.i might cannot proceed to 2nd semester. 3 possibilities if i did not do well in my final exam. I really wish that later in exam,God will show me the miracles. Lord,please...... I really need Your wisdom and strength. Haiz....
I always wish that time can fly to Friday because that is the day my holiday started and also we are going to Ipoh,again,for my darling's concert. But somehow,i really need time,to study,to suffer basically. Argh......
Something suddenly comes in my mind,i remembered that i heard some heartbroken story. It is really unbelievable. Yet,it reminded me of what had happened to me last year. A lesson which can never forget. I was wondering a lot of things. I'm still learning to forgive. But if let say one day he dares to turn to me and apologize and tell me the truth,i actually can simply forgive him. Because hating or unforgiving someone actually burden you. It is like a dead knot in heart. Just pray God will continue to be with me and those broken heart people.
Lord,I really need you a lot now. Help me~~!

Monday, April 4, 2011

The month which started in Ipoh

The night of 31st of March,darling brought me and Sam to Ipoh. I admitted that i was very exciting because I finally can visit Ipoh,and of course meet darling's parents and his youngest brother. When we reached there,uncle and aunt brought us to eat dinner. Ipoh food,nice and cheap,really worth it.

Why we go Ipoh? Because my dear has to do opening for Jonathan Tse's I'm Alive concert. So we went. Well,we stayed there for 3 days 3 nights. It was an interesting trip. Why? I got to travel Ipoh,tasted Ipoh's food,met darling's family and friends,visited his ex-school.

Ipoh is the place where my darling born and grew up. I am happy that i get to come and know and feel the place where he is from,it is a memorable place for him. And i can felt that how much he miss his hometown when he at in other place living and working. Other than that,i can felt that his family is quite nice and happy. Though i just stayed there for few days,i have to admit that after i came back yesterday,i really started to miss there. The life there is as simple as my hometown. The benefit of town. Really enjoyed myself there.

Saturday was the concert. Got to help out to sell Jonathan's and Tim's cds. During the concert,though was the same testimonies that Jon shared like last time when he was in our church for his concert too,i felt that God is calling me back. Oh Lord,thank you for this wonderful trip.

Yesterday got back PJ safely. Well,i really miss Ipoh. But things started to come back again. Sometimes i do question myself,how good am I. I'm not that good actually. Can't help out a lot,still like a 3-year-old child. What else i can do? Just hoping everything going fine,especially my darling. Haiz.... Really have to pray gao gao,put more faith and be cheerful. ><

Anyway,April is really not a fool,God did bless me a lot. Thank you God for starting my April nice. =)

Saturday, March 12, 2011



Sunday, February 27, 2011

I am ugly

Haiz....kinda sleepy right now,had insomnia for two nights. This is crazy!!! Insomnia is killing and torturing me!!! This morning woke up,quite energetic that time. But after 4 or 5 hours,i started to feel sleepy and tired again. Side-effect of insomnia. Apalah ni. Well when i was at church, i was told by a friend of mine that she couldn't recognise me when she saw me and how come i prettier? Lol.... This is what i can only give.

Am I really pretty? I admit i'm don't look bad,but i admit that i'm not pretty as those pretty and sexy chicks. Though im look ok,still,i feel i'm very ugly.

I am ugly. I found this out yesterday in church. When I look at the mirror,i wore nicely,but i am ugly. I was wondering. Why?? Yesterday was Jonathan Tse's concert. He shared some messages,and we sang respond song,Amazing Grace. There,I found out the reason why I am ugly. I cried.

I am ugly,because of my ugly past.
I am ugly,because of the sin I did.

Yet,i feel do not deserve him. Sorry dear. He said he doesn't mind,because everything is a new start. Indeed,it is. But i feel unfair for you because my past,my dear. The truth is,i really love him.

It is also the same,i do not deserve Him too,our Father God. By all His grace,yet,i know,not matter how unworthy,still God loves us. He sacrificed His only son Jesus Christ to die on cross for our sin. How great is this love. God,indeed,you are the most amazing and wonderful God. By His grace,i was provided and blessed by God. One of it is the relationship I having now. I'm thankful for everything He gave,blessed and protected. Thank you God.

And thanks,darling,for everything. Your love,your embrace......

After Jonathan Tse's concert,this song keeps on playing in my mind. I remember when I was in Sunday School,we used to sing that. I Have Decided.

I have follow Jesus...
I have follow Jesus...
I have follow Jesus...
No turning back......

Christian's life never easy. And everything that gone through and past,there is no turning point. Yet,live in Godly way,follow God,and continue to move on.

Yes,I am ugly. I have decided to follow God. And I know God is moving,I am moving,my life is changing. All these are because of our Almighty God. Hallelujah.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Almost end of February

It has been months I didn't update my blog. Well,so far so good. Just felt that wasted my February as last few weeks I're having my holiday in my hometown and only sit in front of my laptop everyday. Argh.

Well,it is happy and excited that I've came back to PJ. Miss my dear so much within that 3 weeks. Keep on counting how many days left till the day i come back. Yes,I'm back,last Saturday. Yay!!!

The next day,Sunday,had a belated Valentine's date with my darling. Thanks,dar. I enjoyed the night. He brought me to Garden at 1-Utama for dinner. Nice food, nice atmosphere, nice piano. Everything so romantic and it is like still Valentine's Day. Like people always says,for couples,everyday is Valentine's Day. Then,we went for movie,Green Hornet. It was not as bad as people comment and rate it. The way Jay Chou act and English that he spoke quite impress me. Jay Chou,well done,finally you know how to speak English. Hoping for nice movie and nice songs from you in future.

Monday,I'm kinda excited and can't wait to go back to university to register for my degree. After took my result,i was told to go to the Admission counter to go through my result approval. You know why? My CGPA got 2.30,and the required credit is 2.33. Man,just 0.03 different. They said have to wait for 2-3 days,and my housemates told me to wait until after the orientation week. Argh. Miss out the orientation week,but another extra week for me to settle down. Yet,I can say,I'm still worrying that will they allow me to further my degree. Most of them said that it is possible to further.

Still,God,help me. I have faith in You. Like what bishop had preached last Saturday. Must have faith in God. Nothing is impossible when you believe and have faith in God. You have faith,but you doubt,it is same as you not trust God. So,believe and trust it will all your heart. I believe this. God has His plan for every single person. We must walk in FAITH.

That night,we went to watch Yogi Bear. It is a nice movie too. Darling said that it is good that I choose to watch it because Yogi Bear makes me happy when i'm stress that time. Dear,you right. At least I'm relax a bit.

Yesterday,Wednesday,went to darling's house to cook lunch. Well,I'm happy with what i cooked. And my dear and his housemate enjoyed it too. Thanks for support. Haha... Night then,we had prayer meeting at church. Through the prayer meeting,I realized that in our daily life,there is a lot of things that we seldom or never pray for. And of course,last night we had the opportunity to pray for it. I'm glad that everyone and the church is moving and growing. Thanks God. Praise to You!

Aha,one thing,quite excited that darling is going to record the 1st song for his 2nd album later evening. Yay!!! Can't wait to listen and buy and get his autograph again for his 2nd album. Haha... Yes,I mean. Wish you all the best dear. Gambatte. I'll always support you.

Now,still looking forward some positive updates for my degree registration. Hope that everything run smoothly and i manage to further my degree. And also hope that one day I can follow my dear to go to his concert. Can't wait for that. Just uphold everything to God's almighty hand. =)